Consequences

I’ve never claimed to be any sort of genius,and I have an assortment of mistakes to prove just that. My latest being my inability to keep track of important information,like where you are point wise. Anyone that works in manufacturing,or warehouse jobs KNOWS your only allowed a certain amount of points. You use those up and yup your fired. 

This is where I have found myself. I admit it was a huge mistake on my part. I dont blame the company they have a policy and everyone is made aware of it. I wont even give you my sob story,cause its pretty lame. I’ll stick with the basic I screwed up,and now I’m paying for it. 

I’m not just paying for it in the way of not having a job though. I have to admit I’m not really too upset about that. I didnt purposefully point out,but I wasnt exactly sad to be let go. No the Consequences come in the form of finding another job to replace the one i’m really not sorry i dont have anymore. 

First I dont get approved for unemployment,because yeah the point system where I worked was a known policy and therefore my responsibility to pay attention. No matter what excuse I could come up with that little detail still keeps me without any help. 

Second every company I apply for pretty much turns up their nose at ANYONE that pointed out. Doesn’t matter that I used to work for them and left with an excellent attendance record,or that I had worked for my previous employer for 12 years before I hit a brick wall and pointed out. NONE of that matters. Employers see you pointed out and they dont even want to give you the time of day. 

Thirdly even the temp agencies dont like the Pointed out stigma,and in interviews its definitely a point of contention. What do I say? I’m sorry I hit a brick wall stopped paying attention to essential information like where i was at point wise? I’m not exactly sure there is a good way to spin that without some well thought out sob story. 

Which leaves me in the position I am in now. You see I don’t really like lying to potential employers. I’m a honest hardworking individual,and despite my screw up think I deserve a second chance to prove myself. Problem is employers dont want to give you that,if you dont have a sob story their not interested. Sad in a way they would prefer I lie to them then telling them the truth. 

All I can do now is just do the best I can to find that one employer that IS interested in giving me that opportunity. Their just not that easy to find these days. So in the meantime I’m paying the consequence for my mistake. 

Jellybeans Morning, Noon & Night by Maggie Pajak — Kickstarter

Jellybeans Morning, Noon & Night by Maggie Pajak — Kickstarter.

 

I just found this kickstarter project today. I just thought it was the cutest thing ever. Oh yeah I guess I should say one of my hobbies is backing kickstarter or indiegogo projects.

Films,books,music,businesses, you name it I’ll share some with you guys from time to time. Sorry I got so excited over this I just had to share it. I love helping people succeed in their dreams.

I’m out of work so I couldn’t back for the amount that I really wanted to,but even at the $5 level you still get some really cool backers gifts. I collect postcards,so getting a signed one with books earlier cover art is an awesome gift. I also have a thing for those rubber bracelets. I just found on pinterest where you can make them into keychains. Anyway check it out,enjoy back. Its a really fun experience, even if all you have to spare is $5

Movies that make me think about Life

I just finished watching “Jeff,who lives at home”. Its about this guy whose kinda stuck in his life. He’s always searching for signs to his destiny. He picks up on what he feels is a sign and it leads him through this twist and turn of events that eventually leads him to improving his relationship with his brother,saving a family and a new feeling of self worth. 

Like the Main character Jeff,I too have wondered after watching the movie “Signs” if my own quirks are somehow going to come into play in that one perfect moment. I wonder though if I’ll recognize that one perfect moment,or will I be stuck in a daze. 

Since losing my Job I’ve been trying to make sense of a lot of things. I believe God will put me where he needs me to be,and I’ve been trying to figure out where that might be. The thing is I’m not sure God meant for me to lose my job,or if on some level I did. 

There have been opportunities near where my brother lives,which could come in handy cause he was just diagnosed with cancer. Its an hour drive from where I live ,so if I get the job it could bring me closer to my brother. I’m just not sure if its the RIGHT job for me though. I’m not really sure what God has in store for me,or what direction I should go,so like Jeff I feel stuck waiting for that sign to show me which direction to go. 

Job Hunt

Day one of my fresh start,and its cold and raining. Not exactly the kind of weather you want to get out in. I spent the entire month of January putting up my resume,applying to jobs online,thru temp agencies. I’m wore out,it seems hunting for a job is just as much work as having an actual job. I still havent been approved for unemployment,so thats been a bit stressful. I feel like I have done nothing but jump through peoples hoops.

I’m bored out of my mind already. I just need something,I dont even care anymore how much I make. I just need a place to go to everyday. I dont want to make the mistake I made when I took my last job. Rule #1 never take a job just for the money,chances are it will suck ass,and thats why they are paying you more. Boy did that job ever suck ass. I went from being a happy person,to being the most depressed person on the planet. Okay well maybe not the MOST depressed,but it was bad none the less.

I just hope that whatever job I get next it will be something I will somewhat enjoy. I at least want to feel a part of a team,and be a part of creating something. Not a lot of choices where I live,so thats going to be an issue. Also my skill sets are lacking. I’ve locked myself into 2 types of jobs, manufacturing & warehouse work. I really need to update some of my skills,so I can get into other avenues of work.

Anyway 1 month down Hopefully i’m not unemployed for too long.

Fresh Start

I figure its a good time to make a fresh start in life. My Birthday is the 27th,so its like I have a whole new year in front of me. A chance to really make some positive changes in my life,and hopefully find some excitement along the way as well. I guess I should maybe make a bucket list for the year,kinda as a guideline to what I would like to see happen.

1. Find a Job that brings me a source of fulfillment

2.Find a new home,one that is easier to maintain

3. Get a KITTY!!

4. Become a better blogger

5. Have some fun.

Okay I think I’ll stick with 5 as anymore and I might spend the entire year trying to figure out which ones I really want to do. Best to keep it simple I say,makes things so much easier.